Day 48

Last night a few things hit me like a ton of bricks, one being...

My soul needs ME to take care of my vessel, my body, THIS body.. the better I can learn to keep this machine running, the more years I will have on this planet Earth, and the more opportunities I will have to better the population.  That being said, people need to eat to survive, and that is what I am going to do.  SO many people these days eat, just to.. well, eat.  I am very guilty of this.  Body, I swear to start taking better care of you and make some drastic changes so that you can stay healthy for me!

Every sickness is caused from dis-ease in the body, and we all do it to ourselves.

I have to help teach Dylan NOW how to take care of himself, I need to start teaching him now about caring for your body the best we can.

I wish I could control my ego already too, but I know my ego is very controlling and large and that one may take a little more time.

Day 41

Well today I feel so much better! I bet its partly because I got a surprise visit from my Fairy Best Friend last night!! I was so excited to see her, and it was pretty awesome that Rafal ran around cleaning the house before they came over too! :)  Now my house isn't so cluttered and I feel much better, almost like I can breath :)

Veronica let me wear a ton of her crystals while she was here last night, they made me feel so clean and energized, and then Darryl did some energy work on me, it felt like it lasted about 10minutes and it changed me! I felt my head rocking back and forth on its own a few times.  I just chanted "I am open to receive" over and over again throughout the whole session.  So, wish me luck!

Its 9am, and dishes are already done and I am about to start my Insanity Day 16.  Its been exactly one week since I had to take my break, and now I am SO ready to start back up again!

Bring it on!

Day 34

What a GORGEOUS Florida day we are having.. These are the kinds of days worth living in Florida for!  It is 72 Degrees without a cloud in the sky and a nice warm breeze.  Windows and doors are wide open today.  I am still sickly but I am not going to let this cold get me down.

Yesterday was my "off" day with Insanity.  Today is Day 15, which means two things:

1. I am a QUARTER of the way there!!!
2. Fit Test #2!!

So I will get to see not only that I AM improving BUT exactly HOW MUCH I am improving! I can already tell it is quite a difference, not only in my overall physical well being but even mentally, I am much more confident and I can feel that as I walk around places, I don't worry about what I look like anymore.  It is almost like I know I am doing the work I need to to be healthy so I must already BE healthy!  I am healthy, although I do want to get this Shakeology stuff every one keeps talking about.  It has over 70 ingredients and is said to be the most important meal in your day!  I would love to get it, but it isn't cheap.  I know and understand that it replaces a meal a day for 30days so $100 shouldn't seem so steep, but when you use food stamps for a lot of your groceries, $100 is difficult to just come up with.  Now, if they had a pay as you go program where they just send a week at a time like Jenny Craig [haha] ok ok ok I am just kidding about that last part, but I guess in retrospect it would be nice, right?   Do you take Food Stamps??

In other news, school is.... school.  I am not going to let it get to me, but I am letting it get to me.  I don't want to stress about it, that will only cause MORE stress.  SO I will just tackle it head on... and BAM conquer yet again.  I can do this.

I am smart.
I can do this.

YES I CAN!  :)

DAY 30

WOW! Can't believe it has already been a month since I started changing and bettering myself!  I took it one day at a time and here we are on Day 30!!!!

Just finished my Day 12 Workout with Shaun and the Bodybuilders team on Insanity: Cardio, Power & Resistance... I feel as though I may be sick, I pushed it today, I pushed it HARD.

Here is a Day 12 Shot::

 

In other news, we carved a pumpkin last night...

 

 

We only did one of the three we got, daddy has been working a lot lately so we haven't had the chance and I still want Rafal & I to carve our pumpkins together <3  It is a family tradition!!

Tonight Dylan is going to stay at our amazing babysitters house and I couldn't be more excited.  I love my little mini breaks.

It is Saturday everyone, be safe out there this weekend and enjoy!!!!

Day 29

Today is Week 2: Day 4: Cardio Recovery

Thank goodness!  I woke up this morning and was like “Oww, I don’t think I can workout today” And even though I know I still would’ve I don’t know if I would’ve pushed myself to do my best.  BUT Cardio Recovery is a little less intense and its only 30minutes instead of 45minutes.

This morning is finally a cool morning.  Two weeks ago we had a cold front that teased me with the thoughts of ~winter~ but alas, it is back to hot.  Yesterday was a perfect beach day; it was like 85 and hardcore sunny.  We like to go to the beach at the beginning of the season and the end of the season rather than in the middle of July when it’s like you roast.  It must have rained last night, the ground is damp outside, and you can still feel the moisture in the air :)

My drink of choice this morning is tea, and golly is it yummy.  I love hot tea on a morning like this.  Today I am going to try to do something awesome, but what I am not sure.  I cannot believe that it is already Friday that 28^th!! Where this week went I am unsure!

Last night when Rafal came home from work he surprised Dylan and I with a date to Chili’s :) So… we didn’t get to carve pumpkins, but we did enjoy a fun family date and a few margaritas too!  I tried a blackberry margarita, and. Oh. My. Gossssh. It was amazing. I need the recipe; I want to make those all the time!

Today Rafal has a huge job that’s taking them to Jupiter, which is a city in South Florida.  It sure sounds funny though “I love you baby, off to Jupiter for the day!” [haha] Makes me giggle!  Ohhhh a cold breeze just shot through the house, I love it!

Day 26

Today has been a most eventful day and we never had to leave the apartment.  Rafal had work today, a big day of two jobs which is always a plus... I worked out and did Day 8: Cardio Power & Resistance, it felt so good, but at the same time it was the first day since I started that half way through I started doubting myself.  I have to get rid of the doubt.

I am strong.  I am talented.  I am persistent.  I can do this.

I struggled through it, but finished and actually I feel like I did a LOT more this time than on Day 3 when I did the same workout.  The butt kicks were higher, the knee kicks were higher, but I still have not gotten the needed muscles for the traveling pushups.  Time will tell and the muscles will grow.  This is a truly neat program though, doing the same things days apart shows me how much it really is working.  Before Dylan (BD) I was pretty athletic not to mention a habit of mine was constantly sucking it, aka tightening my core.  I was constantly doing that, to the point where my doctor yelled at me when I was 5months pregnant.  The gyno said, you are going to hurt your son if you don't relax your stomach muscles.  It was so drilled in to my subconscious that I had no idea I was even doing it.  So it took some time for me to "let go" and stop holding on to that skinny me.  Here I am 3.5 years later, and I had forgotten how to suck in my core, seriously, I know this may sound silly especially to some one who hasn't given birth.  But truly, I think and I KNOW that those stomach muscles had lost their ability.  In the past week I have been able to revert into my ways of keeping my core tight and man oh man am I impressed.  It will probably take another week before its second nature again, but I notice it allllll the time now and then I tighten and feel great!  I can feel all of my muscles coming together and working hard to achieve a healthier new Sara :)

I wrote my memoirs today, about my car accident from 2003.  I am not sure if I want to post it online or not though.  I changed names and a few details but I am just not sure if it's something I am OK with sharing yet.  It was and still is an iffy situation in my heart.

Rafal and Rob are cleaning out the storage units right now, finishing up sweeping them out.  They should be home soon.

I baked bread today, 4 tiny little loaves so that Rafal can take one to work with him tomorrow and the nest day, if he doesn't eat them all tonight :)

My new phone came in the mail today at my mom's house, so I hope to go pick it up tomorrow.  Part of me truly enjoys not having a phone, no one can contact me! haha  The important people have my email and we correspond via GMail and that is good enough for me.  Not to mention Facebook :)

Tonight Dylan and I encountered a *spirit* of some kind.  We were both sitting at the computer talking about school when a little windup music box in the kitchen started playing its music.  It didn't play for 5 or 10 seconds but for an entire minute.  Dylan was saying "Daddy is that you?", but daddy was at work.  I felt like it was a grandma, maybe shes a grandmother to a family in our building and was just stopping through?  It was a nice pleasant cheery feeling that I got from the presence we both felt.  Odd at the same time though that she chose the music box that she did.  We have others throughout our home, but this one doesn't have a turn knob on the bottom, its missing, so we've never heard it play.  Dylan and I just smiled and I told him to say thank you to whoever it was for blessing us with the opportunity to listen to the music.  I am a crazy hippie I know!  :)

Day 23

Can't believe I am sitting here looking at the calendar and that it is already October 22nd.  When did that happen?  No seriously... what the heck.  These days are flying by just like a fast train!!

It's cold again today, we woke up to a 40degree house, brrr!! Let me tell you, I threw that heat on QUICK, as soon as me feet touched the floor I was zooming through the house to the thermostat.  Now with the warmth flowing through the air it feels so nice, just a pleasant feeling... You know, cozy. I love a cozy kind of day.

So, last night was Day 4: Insanity Challenge: Cardio Recovery.  Rafal skipped out on Day 3: Cardio Power & Resistance the night I did it, so he made up for it and did that one TOO last night.  So now he's back on track with me.  Monday will be our first off day, and honestly I don't know if I can handle an off day, I love this feeling so much.. its like a drug and I don't know if I can go a day without it!

Jack Johnson is playing in the background of my daily life, and it really is right now too: How could we have known? Ill tell them its not so hard to tell....  I love a good dose of JJ bright and early on a gorgeous day like today.  Dylan wants to go to the park, so I told him when daddy gets home from work we will.

My coffee tastes better today than lately, not sure what that means, maybe that I usually suck at making coffee??  Who knows.  It is just delicious and thats all that matters.

Last night we had a lovely impromptu dinner date with my folks, and it was magical!  We just met at the mall and enjoyed some food court food and Dylan and Nana rode on the marry-go-round and it made me SO happy to see my mom so happy!!

We ALL deserve happiness, ya know?  If there is ever a moment that you don't believe that for yourself.. I am sorry... YOU deserve to be happy!  Tell yourself that over and over again :)

Day 22

I have a sister, and she is the most amazing, intelligent, funny, hardworking, gorgeous woman I know.  She can put a smile on anyone's face and I am blessed to call her MINE :)

I state this random fact, because to me, this is not random at all.  In fact, I am sitting here in the cold morning air smelling my coffee brewing wearing a really nice and warm deep blue sweater that my sister gave to me when I saw her this past August.  I love hand-me-downs, they are the best thing ever.  So sitting here wearing this sweater it brought back some nice smiles and memories of her last trip to Florida with her amazing boys.

Had to share my warm fuzzies of the AM!

Speaking of warm, its the first time this season I have turned the heat on... and it is stinky!! Dylan was running around hollering because of the smell.  He is such a goof ball.

Last night was a hardcore workout and we planned on getting up this AM and doing Day 4 Insanity but lets just say, when the alarm went off and I felt the cold air on my toes I snuggled up next to Rafal and didn't want to move!  Which isn't a good thing, but it was so warm next to him.  In fact we laid there for so long in the warmth that he was almost late to work!

I love the cool weather this time of year.  I can't believe Halloween is approaching so quickly and then it will be Thanksgiving before we know it!  Holy cow!

Quote of the day:
"Watch your thoughts, they become words.  Watch your words, they become actions.  Watch your actions, they become habits.  Watch your habits, they become character.  Watch your character, it becomes your destiny." -Frank Outlaw

Day 21 - Continued

Here I sit with the sliding glass door wide open and the cold chill of the 45degree air is blowing through my damp hair and I love it.  After an intense 45-minute workout of Insanity Day 3: Cardio Power & Resistance, I need this cool air.  In fact, I finished that workout almost an hour ago and I am still trying to catch my breath and cool down.  Tonight was freaking NUTS to say the least. 

I was so pumped up and ready to go, and about 5minutes in to it I realized something, I am already stronger than I was just yesterday, I am jumping a little bit higher,I am squating a little bit lower, and even more impressive I did over 30 push-up's tonight in total.

Even in basic training back in 2004 I don't think I did this many push-ups with this little strain.  Now, don't get me wrong, it hurt like hell, and I was grunting REALLY loud to get it done, but I did.  I got it done.

I got it done.  Day 3.  Wow.  I am impressed with myself.

In school news today I found out that my first writing assignment will be a 5-page memoir, and I am so excited to get more details so I can start right away!  I love to write.  I always have, and probably always will.

My dinner wasn't the best dinner I have ever made tonight, Rafal ate it all, but I didn't... and now I want some much earned ice cream!!

Good night.  See you bright and early for Day 4: Cardio Recovery!

Day 20

Last night I started college... I started my Problem Solving and Critical Thinking class by reading Chapter 1 and answering the end of chapter questions.  It was 33 pages, and I was not expecting so much reading.  Even though it seemed like a lot, I got it finished.

Rafal and I did our body test when I started getting stressed with homework, yes it was late, but who cares.  We kicked its butt, and it kicked our butts too!  We both felt really good after wards and then Rafal and I laid in bed for about an hour just talking about all kinds of fun stuff.  He remembered through the workout when he used to workout for Judo and how much fun he used to have doing Judo.  I love hearing his stories, he has so many amazing ones!  I think we were asleep by about 2am...

Then up at 5:30am, I got up, turned the alarm off and as I was brushing my teeth I heard a Dylan voice in my bedroom.  Sure enough Dylan had woken up, what was he doing up so early?  It was like maybe he felt us getting up too? Who knows!  I made a healthy shake for Rafal and I and woke him up.  He got up and we got started on the Day 2 workout.  The Plyometric Cardio Cicuit.  HOLY SHIT.  Excuse my language.  It was tough.  But we did it!!  And now that I am already done with my hardcore workout for the day I feel so energized and ready for the day.  Going to try to write an article today, not sure what about, maybe the fact that ALL these children keep going missing... Ugh its disgusting.

Going to start a pot of coffee, Rafal is at work all day today for the first day in over a week and a half.  Dylan and I will miss him today, we have gotten so used to his humor and company throughout the days.  I love you Rafal <3

Coffee, School Work, Examiner and then an appointment with a Daycare at 10am... cross your fingers, he would only go for short days, but it would be just enough for me to get school work done!

Here are our hysterical BEFORE pictures:

Don't judge me! haha

Day 7

Day two on the whole "Hoe-Down" thing from T-Tapp.  I hurt today.  Yesterday Dylan and I "dance-ercised" for about 30minutes, I did about 5minutes of Hoe-downs and then just cardio for the other 25minutes, and I am exhausted and sore today! Must be working!!

Today feels like a lazy day, I fell off the wagon, [lol] I am out of my routine and I don't like it.

Laundry still gets done, food gets cooked and dishes still get done, but its not the same when I don't get up at 7am and start my REAL day.  Today I slept until Dylan woke me up at 8am... Which is OK, but I am a little mad at myself.

In other news- Steve Jobs died yesterday.  He IS one of the greatest men to have ever lived in our lifetime and I hope everyone can respect that.  He will be missed.... God bless him!

Last night we met my parents at George's Breakfast Station in Tarpon Springs for dinner and then we drove to Howard Park to see the sunset.. it was gorgeous.

This is a shot I took in the side view mirror of the sky behind us... Beautiful right??

Day 6

I am kind of in a funk, don't feel like doing my normal articles today, I feel like doing my craft projects that are piling up.  Ive got a desk that needs sanding and painted, as well as a sofa table and a bar hutch... they are all in decent condition and shouldn't take too long to sand down, but either way.  I gotta get to that today.

Got up this AM with Rafal like every morning, and took Marley out.  How is it possible that he doesn't have to use the bathroom every single time we go out?  Like once, or twice a day he actually pee's or you know, but its so rare?

I'm drinking my coffee thinking about some T-Tapp, a new workout I have stumbled upon due to my great friend Veronica Prewitt.  She is amazing :)  Very blessed to have her in my life.

Made a London Broil last night, and Rafal fell in love with me all over again [haha] It was really good, even I was impressed.  The other night I made crock pot country ribs, with a bud light lime, and a cup of apple juice and a few spices like garlic, salt and pepper.. it came out amazing! About 6hours and they were falling OFF the bone!  Then last night I marinated the broil in soy sauce, ketchup, salt/pepper, garlic and onions.  I also put about a cup of veggie oil in the sauce and it helped keep it juicy!  It marinated about 5hours and then just threw it on the grill, about 6 minutes on each side.  Came out like heaven.

Day 3

Well, here I sit with Mayo/Egg Yolks/Olive Oil slathered all over my head.  I needed a deep conditioning treatment for my nappy, over died, fried, bleached out hair, and I googled a home remedy and found one. Lets hope it works.  I do know one thing, Rafal loves Mayo, so he might be ALL over me tonight! haha

Haven't had a Red Bull in months, I had stopped caffeine and sugar.  As of August 9th I switched to only Water and Mio.  But then when I started getting up early with Rafal on September 9th I added a few cups of coffee to my morning ritual, SO caffeine has become a daily staple in my life again.  I stopped drinking sugary drinks to see if I could loose a few extra pounds of squishy I seem to have gained, but alas, nada.  So, screw it!

Its such a beautiful day today, but so weird not having Dylan.  He stayed the night at my parents house and they took him to the mall to play, and to see the Dolphin Tale movie.  *There are ants crawling past me on my living room wall... what the heck*  Anywho.  I just talked to Dylan on the phone and he sounds so grown up to me.

I am going to throw some ribs in a crock pot for Rafal and then head to my parents house to pick up the monkey.  Today is a good day.

Last night was a good night, I spent the evening with my two good friends Veronica & Darryl.  We had a GREAT time, doing silly teenage things like walking on the train tracks and giggling at the bus stop.  I wish I had taken some pictures of us, those would be good memories.  Ah well, it will happen again!

Enjoy your beautiful Sunday where ever you are and God Bless!