Day 44

I am unsure as to what is better than waking up with your three year old snuggled into your chest, smiling at you as you open your eyes... Its a cold windy day out today and as I sit here doing homework I am enjoying the next best things in my day, a bowl of fruit and cream oatmeal and a hot cup of black coffee.  Today is going to be an amazing day.  I am sure you think "OK, but she says that every day!" and you are right, every day is an amazing day, but each and every day is a little bit better than the day before.  It's another blessing and gift from our God.  An amazing gift at that, could you imagine not waking up to this beautiful day?  Instead waking up elsewhere, in a country not as free as ours, or where women can't have a mind of their own.  Every day is a blessing.  Even when little things are going wrong, I wish everyone could now how good we all have it.  Even the homeless in our country have it good.  There aren't too many other countries with homeless shelters that feed and house you.  As well as pan handling, you make quite a bit of spending cash on the sides of these busy roads.

The moral of my blog today is, please be thankful for everything you have.  Even if your power got shut off, or your in the process of getting evicted.  You live in America (well hopefully you do if you are reading this) and that alone is a blessing to be thankful for.

Amen, Universe. ;)

Just a little something I found today...

"To think. Two people are born. Born on different days, in different years, in different towns. Born to different parents, different families. Two separate personalities. Two separate experiences. She dreamed of him her whole life. He dreamed of her. A faceless ideal, to an age old desire. Is it fate to believe, when their lives collide? Like two atoms who have spent year after year circling the atmosphere, searching for their complete likeness. Is it fate to believe that these two strangers happen to be at the exact same place, at the exact same time? Or, is it merely, pure coincidence; the right place, at the right time, with the right chemistry? Destiny or not, these two people met. Their two hearts and their two souls spontaneously collided, completely unaware that their dreams just caught up to them. And somewhere along their separate journeys, these two people became exactly who they needed to be for that one moment in time. That one moment that fated the rest of their lives, to become one heart and one soul. It's an interesting thing. To think."

I couldn't have written any thing more perfect for Rafal & I.

Day 41

Well today I feel so much better! I bet its partly because I got a surprise visit from my Fairy Best Friend last night!! I was so excited to see her, and it was pretty awesome that Rafal ran around cleaning the house before they came over too! :)  Now my house isn't so cluttered and I feel much better, almost like I can breath :)

Veronica let me wear a ton of her crystals while she was here last night, they made me feel so clean and energized, and then Darryl did some energy work on me, it felt like it lasted about 10minutes and it changed me! I felt my head rocking back and forth on its own a few times.  I just chanted "I am open to receive" over and over again throughout the whole session.  So, wish me luck!

Its 9am, and dishes are already done and I am about to start my Insanity Day 16.  Its been exactly one week since I had to take my break, and now I am SO ready to start back up again!

Bring it on!

Day 40

Hectic lately? Oh yes.

I am in a funk today, and I just don't want to do anything... I think there's a lot of negative energy attacking me or something?  This is SO not like me.  I want to go lay in bed and not even read a fun book, I just want to lay there.  I feel so bad for Dylan today, because, well, I suck. [haha] I don't want to do my school work, I don't want to workout, I don't want to even blog... BUT I felt that I had to do something productive, so here I am, explaining to all of you how bummed out I am today.

Maybe I should fill you in on the last 6 days??

Lots of little frustrations in our household, not with each other, just about monies, which I hear is super common these days.  I read in a book the other day the number one cause of divorce these days is the economical worries.  Well that is NOT going to happen to us.  I read through a few Dave Ramsey books over the weekend, and Rafal and I came up with a simple and hopefully very effective plan.  I think I need to go get a job, like the midnight shift at McDonalds or something, so that I can be helping to save.  Maybe 3 nights a week?  I don't think that would be so consuming?  I could be very wrong though, considering I am still a full time mom from like 7am-9pm.  Then I would go to a job from 11pm-5am?  Hmph.  Maybe that is an awful idea, but hey, I am glad I wrote it out so that I could think about it better.

My body feels so, blah today... *sigh*

Usually I am Miss Motivator, but not feeling it right now.. Some one share some motivation with me?

Day 34

What a GORGEOUS Florida day we are having.. These are the kinds of days worth living in Florida for!  It is 72 Degrees without a cloud in the sky and a nice warm breeze.  Windows and doors are wide open today.  I am still sickly but I am not going to let this cold get me down.

Yesterday was my "off" day with Insanity.  Today is Day 15, which means two things:

1. I am a QUARTER of the way there!!!
2. Fit Test #2!!

So I will get to see not only that I AM improving BUT exactly HOW MUCH I am improving! I can already tell it is quite a difference, not only in my overall physical well being but even mentally, I am much more confident and I can feel that as I walk around places, I don't worry about what I look like anymore.  It is almost like I know I am doing the work I need to to be healthy so I must already BE healthy!  I am healthy, although I do want to get this Shakeology stuff every one keeps talking about.  It has over 70 ingredients and is said to be the most important meal in your day!  I would love to get it, but it isn't cheap.  I know and understand that it replaces a meal a day for 30days so $100 shouldn't seem so steep, but when you use food stamps for a lot of your groceries, $100 is difficult to just come up with.  Now, if they had a pay as you go program where they just send a week at a time like Jenny Craig [haha] ok ok ok I am just kidding about that last part, but I guess in retrospect it would be nice, right?   Do you take Food Stamps??

In other news, school is.... school.  I am not going to let it get to me, but I am letting it get to me.  I don't want to stress about it, that will only cause MORE stress.  SO I will just tackle it head on... and BAM conquer yet again.  I can do this.

I am smart.
I can do this.

YES I CAN!  :)