164 Days [23 Weeks 3 Days]

Another week has come and gone, I can not believe it is already the weekend.  I miss my main squeeze, but really am proud of him for working so much for me and our family.  I love him so much.  I am a very blessed woman, even when I am feeling uneasy and in the dumps, I know I am blessed by God every day!

As I sit here watching Pound Puppies with my little guy, Maya is sleeping and not being active for once today.  She is a very active little girl and its amazing to me!  Love feeling her inside me, its crazy!

This week has been pretty decent, been depressed a lot, but its just my goofy hormones I know that.  Today I had a root canal, that was NOT fun at all.  After that Dylan and I went to the CU to borrow Papa's car for the weekend.  So now that we have a running and working vehicle for the weekend, we went and spent the afternoon at the "Dunedin Spray-Ground" and Dylan had a blast.  I have to admit, I did too!  I had stopped on the way and gotten a new book I have been hearing a lot about:

"Fifty Shades of Grey"

Sounds filthy and awesome and I got to Chapter 2 sitting there, and so far so good!!

Tonight depending on when Daddy gets done at work we may go down to Clearwater Beach and watch the Smurfs on the big screen and enjoy the beautiful evening air <3  Who knows!  I am excited to see Rafal either way.  Going to go fix Dylan a hotdog :)

-Week 23-

160 Days [22 Weeks 6 Days]

Last night my parents, Babci, Dylan and I took Rafal out for a nice dinner in celebration of his birthday that is this coming Wednesday.  He told him boss he didn't want any days off, so... he works every day this week until next Sunday and Monday he will be off.

Dinner was lovely and delicious.  And Rafal got a funny shirt from my parents and I absolutely love the way it fits on him too.

My handsome man <3 

The other day, an older woman (in her late 40's) was flirting with him, and I don't mind, I just smile, she said "I bet your told this ALL the time, but you look just like Ryan Gosling!!" and he was like "I don't even know who that is, but I hope its a compliment!" and smiled at her, and I said "Babe, he's that hottie from the Notebook that I love so much, and now I know why..." haha I hadn't noticed it until she said it, but they DO have a nice resemblance of one another! So Woohoo!

Here's a picture of us from last night as well...

I also have of of the whole adorable Szmyglewski Family making silly faces!

As well as two new shots of the buddah belly!!

I can NOT believe here I am, getting ready to be 23 weeks tomorrow!  Rafal and every one at dinner last night kept saying how adorable I looked, but that I still don't LOOK pregnant, just look like I ate a lasagna!

[haha]

Feeling great these days :)

Loving life these days :)

Praying mostly to find a house these days :)

God is SO good to me, everyday!  :)

157 Days [22 Weeks 3 Days]

You know when you search and look and hope and pray for something your whole life, only to be in complete and utter denial once you get it?  That is where I am right now, where I am every day throughout this whole pregnancy.  God has graced me with something so miraculous, so wonderful and I am still without words to describe its awesomeness.  Seriously.  Rafal and I had been trying since Christmas of 2009 to give Dylan a baby brother or baby sister.  After the first six months I chalked it up to my birth control screwing up my system, at the first year I just blamed it on some stresses with massage school.  When October of 2011 came around I cried a lot, and finally "Gave it to God" and told Him I understood we were not meant to have any more babies in this life and I would stop being so sad about it.  I figured maybe my calling was adoption, which I have always longed to do either way.  Some of my readers may know what its like to think "Oh my gosh! Maybe this is the month!" and spend hundreds of dollars on pregnancy tests just to end up crying again because the dreaded period started again.  I just wanted another baby so bad.  November I started talking with my close friend Veronica about all the PROS of not having another baby, and it helped a lot.  I enrolled in school full time and got excited about a possible internship in the spring.  I talked about us being able to travel this summer to Poland and Europe!  It started to sound fun just having Dylan as an only child.  Then on a night surrounded by God himself we conceived my precious baby girl.  In fact, we know the exact day that it happened, and the best part is I blogged about it on here. 

[Day 59]

*If you want to look it up, its not graphic at all, thats not how I roll*

Yesterday couldn't have been a more perfect day.  I think that every day should be just as lovely.  Kissing in parking lots is romantic, but kissing barefoot in your own kitchen with Christmas music playing and the smell of cookies filling the air is priceless.  I am so blessed.

That is the last paragraph of the entry... Yesterday couldn't have been a more perfect day <3 God gave us Baby Maya in those moments as I typed that post.  I feel so blessed to have written about it and have it to show her one day, how she was made in true love and happiness.  There was no hope left in me, I was not thinking about it at all.  It just happened.

I remember I was late, and thought to myself, only one day late, it'll start tomorrow.  Then sure enough my cramps started and I was like yep, told ya so.  When I woke up the next day and still no sign of my "dear friend" [haha] I decided to pee on a stick, only because I had three left from my last hopeful experience and I just wanted to get rid of them.  So I peed and we left for the day to do some storage auctions.  I never even looked at it, just left.  That's how you know you've really given up.

We were out all day and I kept having to pee, I even said to Rafal, what the heck was in that coffee we had, I never have to pee and I have had to pee all day today!  That should've been my first clue.  When we got home I glanced at it before throwing it in the trash and I saw a faint line, and I thought

Noooooo.

So I took another one and sat there and watched it.

I watched it turn to one line, and then to the other line.

Still in denial, I took that third test.

I squealed when it TOO was positive.

I had a million thoughts in my mind in that instant.  I couldn't do anything but run out to Rafal.  I wish he would've been holding a camera to get my expression on record [haha] I walked out in to the livingroom holding a test in my hand behind my back and just stood in front of him smiling at him.  He said "What is it?" and I just handed it to him and he said "Whats this?" 

...silence...

"Wait. Baby, what is THIS?!?"

and he started smiling so big.

We hugged and hugged and hugged Dylan too, and even though he didn't know why at the time I had to include him in our happiness.  It was perfect.  Everything was perfect.

Everything is perfect.

Everyday is perfect.

Even when it's not, it still really, truly is.

Thank you God for your amazing blessings.  I thank you every day.  

<3

155 Days [22 Weeks 1 Day]

I love when Rafal has a random day off every once in awhile, like when a job cancels... Its awesome.

I don't love, however, having car trouble, and yes, again.... Our car is in the shop.

But in more fun and exciting news!!

We were driving past a consignment store tonight that we love and there was a huge sign that read "UNDER NEW MANAGEMENT! 50-75% OFF STOREWIDE!!!"  So of course, we had to stop in really quick.

Let me just tell you the clothes I bought for Miss Maya Riley are to DIE for <3

My sweet princess baby girl!

Dylan got some great new swimming trunks and awesome summer time dinosaur pjs from Bealls earlier in the day, so I didn't feel too bad about splurging on her! [hehe]

Can't wait to snuggle her!

Here is what 22 weeks looks like::

154 Days [22 Weeks]

Holy COW I am 22 Weeks!!

How Far Along:

  22 Weeks!!

Total Weight Gain:

I have made it to my pre-baby weight, and am back at 139!

Maternity Clothes:

I hardly look pregnant, but I am wearing lots of flowing dresses :)

Stretch Marks:

Hoping for NONE!

Sleep:

Sleeping a LOT these days.  Naps during the day and 8+ hours at night!

Best Moment This Week:

Baby Maya had the hiccups last night for a little while :)

Miss Anything?

Going out and being able to drink if I want

Movement:

All day long! I can tell when she's sleeping now.. its so neat!

Food Cravings:

FRUIT! Oh and PB&J!!

Anything Making You Queasy or Sick:

Hmm.. Not really. Dog poop! haha

Gender:

GIRL!!! Baby Maya Riley <3

Labor Signs:

Dealing with braxton hicks... fun!

Symptoms:

Exhausted all the time.  Can't get comfortable at night.

Belly Button In or Out:

Still an innie, had to take out my belly button ring though and switch it for a smaller eye brow ring to keep the hole.  The belly button ring kept wiggling free!

Happy or Moody Lately:

Happy!!!!

Looking Forward To:

Feeling more active again!!!

We will be taking a new weekly picture tonight :) I am excited!

God is so good!!  I am STILL in denial that He has blessed me with my baby girl!! Can not wait to hold her and snuggle her and smell her sweet baby smell!