Friday, April 27, 2012

164 Days [23 Weeks 3 Days]

Another week has come and gone, I can not believe it is already the weekend.  I miss my main squeeze, but really am proud of him for working so much for me and our family.  I love him so much.  I am a very blessed woman, even when I am feeling uneasy and in the dumps, I know I am blessed by God every day!

As I sit here watching Pound Puppies with my little guy, Maya is sleeping and not being active for once today.  She is a very active little girl and its amazing to me!  Love feeling her inside me, its crazy!

This week has been pretty decent, been depressed a lot, but its just my goofy hormones I know that.  Today I had a root canal, that was NOT fun at all.  After that Dylan and I went to the CU to borrow Papa's car for the weekend.  So now that we have a running and working vehicle for the weekend, we went and spent the afternoon at the "Dunedin Spray-Ground" and Dylan had a blast.  I have to admit, I did too!  I had stopped on the way and gotten a new book I have been hearing a lot about:

"Fifty Shades of Grey"

Sounds filthy and awesome and I got to Chapter 2 sitting there, and so far so good!!

Tonight depending on when Daddy gets done at work we may go down to Clearwater Beach and watch the Smurfs on the big screen and enjoy the beautiful evening air <3  Who knows!  I am excited to see Rafal either way.  Going to go fix Dylan a hotdog :)

-Week 23-


Monday, April 23, 2012

160 Days [22 Weeks 6 Days]

Last night my parents, Babci, Dylan and I took Rafal out for a nice dinner in celebration of his birthday that is this coming Wednesday.  He told him boss he didn't want any days off, so... he works every day this week until next Sunday and Monday he will be off.

Dinner was lovely and delicious.  And Rafal got a funny shirt from my parents and I absolutely love the way it fits on him too.


My handsome man <3 
The other day, an older woman (in her late 40's) was flirting with him, and I don't mind, I just smile, she said "I bet your told this ALL the time, but you look just like Ryan Gosling!!" and he was like "I don't even know who that is, but I hope its a compliment!" and smiled at her, and I said "Babe, he's that hottie from the Notebook that I love so much, and now I know why..." haha I hadn't noticed it until she said it, but they DO have a nice resemblance of one another! So Woohoo!

Here's a picture of us from last night as well...


I also have of of the whole adorable Szmyglewski Family making silly faces!


As well as two new shots of the buddah belly!!



I can NOT believe here I am, getting ready to be 23 weeks tomorrow!  Rafal and every one at dinner last night kept saying how adorable I looked, but that I still don't LOOK pregnant, just look like I ate a lasagna!

[haha]

Feeling great these days :)

Loving life these days :)

Praying mostly to find a house these days :)

God is SO good to me, everyday!  :)

Friday, April 20, 2012

157 Days [22 Weeks 3 Days]

You know when you search and look and hope and pray for something your whole life, only to be in complete and utter denial once you get it?  That is where I am right now, where I am every day throughout this whole pregnancy.  God has graced me with something so miraculous, so wonderful and I am still without words to describe its awesomeness.  Seriously.  Rafal and I had been trying since Christmas of 2009 to give Dylan a baby brother or baby sister.  After the first six months I chalked it up to my birth control screwing up my system, at the first year I just blamed it on some stresses with massage school.  When October of 2011 came around I cried a lot, and finally "Gave it to God" and told Him I understood we were not meant to have any more babies in this life and I would stop being so sad about it.  I figured maybe my calling was adoption, which I have always longed to do either way.  Some of my readers may know what its like to think "Oh my gosh! Maybe this is the month!" and spend hundreds of dollars on pregnancy tests just to end up crying again because the dreaded period started again.  I just wanted another baby so bad.  November I started talking with my close friend Veronica about all the PROS of not having another baby, and it helped a lot.  I enrolled in school full time and got excited about a possible internship in the spring.  I talked about us being able to travel this summer to Poland and Europe!  It started to sound fun just having Dylan as an only child.  Then on a night surrounded by God himself we conceived my precious baby girl.  In fact, we know the exact day that it happened, and the best part is I blogged about it on here. 

[Day 59]
*If you want to look it up, its not graphic at all, thats not how I roll*
Yesterday couldn't have been a more perfect day.  I think that every day should be just as lovely.  Kissing in parking lots is romantic, but kissing barefoot in your own kitchen with Christmas music playing and the smell of cookies filling the air is priceless.  I am so blessed.

That is the last paragraph of the entry... Yesterday couldn't have been a more perfect day <3 God gave us Baby Maya in those moments as I typed that post.  I feel so blessed to have written about it and have it to show her one day, how she was made in true love and happiness.  There was no hope left in me, I was not thinking about it at all.  It just happened.

I remember I was late, and thought to myself, only one day late, it'll start tomorrow.  Then sure enough my cramps started and I was like yep, told ya so.  When I woke up the next day and still no sign of my "dear friend" [haha] I decided to pee on a stick, only because I had three left from my last hopeful experience and I just wanted to get rid of them.  So I peed and we left for the day to do some storage auctions.  I never even looked at it, just left.  That's how you know you've really given up.

We were out all day and I kept having to pee, I even said to Rafal, what the heck was in that coffee we had, I never have to pee and I have had to pee all day today!  That should've been my first clue.  When we got home I glanced at it before throwing it in the trash and I saw a faint line, and I thought

Noooooo.

So I took another one and sat there and watched it.

I watched it turn to one line, and then to the other line.

Still in denial, I took that third test.

I squealed when it TOO was positive.

I had a million thoughts in my mind in that instant.  I couldn't do anything but run out to Rafal.  I wish he would've been holding a camera to get my expression on record [haha] I walked out in to the livingroom holding a test in my hand behind my back and just stood in front of him smiling at him.  He said "What is it?" and I just handed it to him and he said "Whats this?" 

...silence...

"Wait. Baby, what is THIS?!?"

and he started smiling so big.

We hugged and hugged and hugged Dylan too, and even though he didn't know why at the time I had to include him in our happiness.  It was perfect.  Everything was perfect.

Everything is perfect.

Everyday is perfect.

Even when it's not, it still really, truly is.

Thank you God for your amazing blessings.  I thank you every day.  

<3

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

155 Days [22 Weeks 1 Day]

I love when Rafal has a random day off every once in awhile, like when a job cancels... Its awesome.

I don't love, however, having car trouble, and yes, again.... Our car is in the shop.

But in more fun and exciting news!!

We were driving past a consignment store tonight that we love and there was a huge sign that read "UNDER NEW MANAGEMENT! 50-75% OFF STOREWIDE!!!"  So of course, we had to stop in really quick.

Let me just tell you the clothes I bought for Miss Maya Riley are to DIE for <3

My sweet princess baby girl!

Dylan got some great new swimming trunks and awesome summer time dinosaur pjs from Bealls earlier in the day, so I didn't feel too bad about splurging on her! [hehe]

Can't wait to snuggle her!

Here is what 22 weeks looks like::


Tuesday, April 17, 2012

154 Days [22 Weeks]

Holy COW I am 22 Weeks!!

How Far Along:
  22 Weeks!!
Total Weight Gain:
I have made it to my pre-baby weight, and am back at 139!
Maternity Clothes:
I hardly look pregnant, but I am wearing lots of flowing dresses :)
Stretch Marks:
Hoping for NONE!
Sleep:
Sleeping a LOT these days.  Naps during the day and 8+ hours at night!
Best Moment This Week:
Baby Maya had the hiccups last night for a little while :)
Miss Anything?
Going out and being able to drink if I want
Movement:
All day long! I can tell when she's sleeping now.. its so neat!
Food Cravings:
FRUIT! Oh and PB&J!!
Anything Making You Queasy or Sick:
Hmm.. Not really. Dog poop! haha
Gender:
GIRL!!! Baby Maya Riley <3
Labor Signs:
Dealing with braxton hicks... fun!
Symptoms:
Exhausted all the time.  Can't get comfortable at night.
Belly Button In or Out:
Still an innie, had to take out my belly button ring though and switch it for a smaller eye brow ring to keep the hole.  The belly button ring kept wiggling free!
Happy or Moody Lately:
Happy!!!!
Looking Forward To:
Feeling more active again!!!
We will be taking a new weekly picture tonight :) I am excited!
God is so good!!  I am STILL in denial that He has blessed me with my baby girl!! Can not wait to hold her and snuggle her and smell her sweet baby smell!

Monday, April 16, 2012

153 Days [21 Weeks 6 Days]

"A person is a person, no matter how small." - Horton Hears A Who

I love that line, and I think I will paint it on a canvas and frame it in my big boys room when we move.  I have big ideas of fun things I am going to make for my children's rooms when we move into our long term home.  We are still on the search for a beautiful 3-4 bedroom house, with a fenced yard, at least 2 bathrooms, a side-by-side refrigerator with an ice machine, a garage, and a laundry room.  Anything beyond that would be just a dream come true.  I plan on not painting this time, I always paint.  This time I plan on framing, with crown molding, a lot of large pieces of fabric and MDF painted with chalk board paint, and hanging them throughout the children's rooms.  I can see it in my minds eye, and boy is it ever so beautiful!  I can not wait to make it happen.

Today is a gorgeous day.
I mean, here, look for yourself...



I sat out on the porch for about an hour and a half, in my tiny bikini and cute baby belly and worked on some sun, as well as gave myself a bright orange mani-pedi!  I love doing my nails, it is such a stress reliever.  Although I still need to add about two more coats for it to look perfect.

Rafal has been working so much lately, his last day off was on Thursday, but even that wasn't a full day off.  When your boss calls 3 to 4 times a day to talk about the week ahead, it isn't exactly like you get to relax with your family.  Not to mention, when you only get one day off every one to two weeks you have a lot to get done, for instance, grocery shopping, getting the oil changed, washing the car.  We walked around Target and bought a few baby dresses with Dylan, my mom and our Babci.  We went to the DMV and got his new dirt bike registered finally, so hopefully that will be his transportation to and from work, and Dylan, Maya and I can have the car! Woohoo!

We really miss that daddy.  He misses us too, which isn't normal, usually we drive him nuts!! [haha]  He loves us very much, but when you are used to being around adults all day, being around a happy, hyper, four year old can be quite exhausting!  He text me today and these are the words of the text:

"I love you baby carryin, baby momma, princess, lady face, cutie patutie, snuggly woogly sugar plum, without the seed in the middle, full of delicious pineapple juice, sweet tomato skin, you!"

I loved getting that random text, in fact, I think I have read it three or four times since I got it, just because it makes me smile.  I love him and miss him like woah.  He doesn't know when his next day off will be... Which means, not this whole week, or the weekend, or even next week.  His 24th birthday is on April 25th, which is next Wednesday, and he's told me he's not even going to ask off.  SO I am hoping I can convince my family to take him to dinner that night, so that at least if nothing else he can be with family and enjoy a yummy meal!

Dylan is asking for macaroni and cheese for lunch with hot dogs, so away I go to fix him some food.

Have a blessed day... Tomorrow Maya is 22 weeks in my belly!!

Sunday, April 15, 2012

152 Days [21 Weeks 5 Days]

Sitting here, listening to the vertical blinds blowing in the breeze.  I opened the sliding glass door this morning, it is so beautiful outside I had to.  The sun is shinning in ever so fabulously and Marley is laying on his big comfy dog bed right in the sunlight.  Dylan just put on the Spanish channel, telemundo, (i really am laughing out loud) I explained that it was in a different language and he said I like Spanish mommy! SO Spanish it is this morning.  

We got up early this morning, I rolled over and snuggled up to Rafal and said "Baby, its 8o'clock" and he snuggled up to me more and said "Good morning my princess" and he opened his eyes and smiled so big, it warmed my heart. Then he rubbed my belly and said good morning baby princess.  He really is excited to be having another baby, its super sweet.  Within minutes of us waking each other up with smiles and snuggles, Dylan came in all sleepy eyed and smiling and said "Good morning guys!" and like every morning Marley almost tackled him when he saw him, they are best buddies and when Dylan wakes up, it is almost like it is Marley's favorite time of day.  He licks him all over and Dylan usually squeals in delight "Marrrrleyyy!!! Stoooppppp!!!" smiling all the while.

We all piled into the car and took Rafal to work, and then after we dropped him off, Dylan and I went to 7-Eleven to get him a sprinkle doughnut.  He loves doughnuts but they are a rare occurrence in our home.  Its almost like just LOOKING at the sugar gets him all goofy, so alas, it is rare.  Now we are home, enjoying our sugary delights, and the sun shine coming in through the windows.

I am sitting here realizing that Baby Maya is sleeping this morning, shes just snuggling mommy and I love it.  I am dreaming of our home that we will be moving in to in a few months.  God has been so good to us, it is amazing the things that have happened since I have put God first in my life.  I tell Rafal all the time, that I can not imagine what we would have if he put Him first too!  The world wouldn't be ready for this jelly!  [haha]  

So this Tuesday, I will be 22 weeks.  That is blowing my mind.  I have been very tired lately, more than usual, the past few days.  I think Maya is having a growth spurt or something!  She is so big now she just rolls and kicks and punches and jumps all the time, its amazing to watch my belly when she's awake.  I look forward to her laying on my chest soon, so I can snuggle her and smell her sweet baby smell. 

She will be here sooner than we know it!

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

147 Days [ 21 Weeks]

 I just popped out literally over night.  One day Rafal was laughing about how I just looked like I ate a big dinner, and the next night his exact words were "DAMN! YOUR HUGE!" [haha] I knew what he meant, and that was supposed to be a nice statement... Sounds nice right?



So here's my belly, I decided last week to start doing my weekly pictures in the black stretchy dress, it will form more to my belly and really show off how much its grown.  Although, as I get farther along I have a feeling you will all be seeing a lot more skin!  I am not afraid to show it all off!!

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

141 Days [20 Weeks 1 Day]

Can not believe I have been absent from blogging for almost three whole months, I feel awfully horrible about it.  I told myself today, I am going to MAKE time, every day, even if only 10 minutes to blog again.  I have missed you my blog.

In other news!!

We are 20 Weeks!  Almost half way there!! With our sweet baby

GIRL!

I can't believe it.  I mean we always knew we would have a girl, and we knew when we found out I was pregnant that she, well she was a SHE.  Now we know for sure and its an amazing feeling.

God is so good to me and my family <3

 March 30th at the Pool with Dylan!

How Far Along:
  20 Weeks 1 Day
Total Weight Gain:
I was 140lbs before baby, and lost 13 pounds total.  I am back to 136 as of yesterday though!
Maternity Clothes:
I still don't even hardly look pregnant!
Stretch Marks:
Not at all, but I am taking much better care of myself this time around.  I got quite a few on my hips with Dylan, and I learned my lesson, don't scratch the itch!
Sleep:
Still an insomniac.
Best Moment This Week:
Had a great week!  Went and spent all day Sunday at the Zoo with my family!
Miss Anything?
Margaritas <3
Movement:
YES! Lots! I felt her on March 1st for the first time!
Food Cravings:
Fruit and Cookies... and red meat.
Anything Making You Queasy or Sick:
Not really.... boogers! haha
Gender:
GIRL!!! Baby Maya Riley <3
Labor Signs:
Braxton Hicks started about two weeks ago.... ugh.
Symptoms:
Exhausted still, and severe insomnia...
Belly Button In or Out:
Still an innie, with my belly button ring still in it.
Happy or Moody Lately:
Happy and Moody! haha
Looking Forward To:
Feeling more active again!!!

Sunday, April 1, 2012

138 Days [19 Weeks 5 Days]

Here I am almost 20 weeks, so today we took our 20 week picture today.


I am absolutely loving the chalk board, and I am SO glad we did it!  Dylan uses it all week and draws beautiful pictures for me <3